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Hi, my name is [One
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 | Stab My Back |
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 5 with 3 vote(s)
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| Created: 2010-03-16 16:04:17 |
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AN: Themes: Romance
Characters: Lea and Sarah.
Warnings: Gxy females.
Notes: Sarah is the unnamed girlfriend from the One-Shot ‘Unnamed.’ Sarah POV. Lyrics belong to The All American Rejects ad are edited to suit the situation. (i.e. He = she). I also used only a few of the verses instead of the whole song.
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/Now we’re broken on the floor,
She just wants me to share her.
It hasn’t been this way before,
She just wants me to dare her./
“Lea, you broke my heart. I don’t think you intentionally set out to hurt me, not really. Despite your terrible choices, you are not a bad person, but you did nonetheless, intentional or not. You broke my heart in more ways than I thought possible. I loved you. I love you. But I never had you love did I? Not truly. You loved me sure, but you were never in love with me where you? Not when She was around. Not when she was polluting you against me with her flirtatious lies. I don’t wholly blame you, Lea. She is rather beautiful; much better than me – who is homely at best. You said so yourself. Don’t pull that face, Lea. You know the saying as well as I: many a true thing is said in jest.
Please don’t refute the facts, Lea. We both know it is true. Don’t try to spare my feelings when you have already made me so numb...
/The phone rings,
And she screams.
Stab my back,
It’s better when I bleed for you.
Walk on me,
There never was enough to do./
‘Broken but not finished.’ You said that to me once, before we become intimate. This was when your last fling, a string of many (yes, don’t look so surprised. I knew, I knew all along how you cope with your pain and confusion. Please do not underestimate my knowledge of you) shattered into nothing, disintegrated into nothing more than the sands of time, running through your helplessly grasping fingers. You reached out for affection constantly, looked for it in all the wrong places. Did you ever realise what was sitting beside you the whole time? I don’t think you fully realised how much I love you even now. Because I do.
You took me for a fool, and yet even now I would play the joker for you time and time again. Because love makes you an idiot. Because you made me love.
/And every time [she] held you close
Yeah, were you thinking of me?
When I needed you the most
Well I hope that you're happy/
I watched you for so long. I loved you for so long. What had she done to deserve you? Thrown you a few pitiful smiles and suggestive winks. I don’t wholly blame you, so easily taken by a pretty are you. I could never hope to keep you ensnared. Did you ever think of me, even once, when you were with her? Please, just tell me there was some semblance of guilt, that you truly care for me in some way more than a friend. Please, just tell me there was something there, and it wasn’t all a lie. I... I love you. I don’t want to be like those other girls; I don’t want to be a distraction. Even now as it is over, please, even if it’s a lie, lie so sweetly to me.
Tell me you thought of me whilst you were with her, and assure me it was not the other way around. Tell me you did love me, at some point at least. Please. The lies are my lullaby... let me sleep tonight.
/I hope that love [she] gave you
Was just enough to save you
You nearly broke my heart
Just look at what you're tearing apart/
I love you but I cannot look at you in the same way. I hoped you found whatever you were looking for in bedding her. I hope she gave you whatever it was you needed, whatever it was I couldn’t provide, even if it were only for one night.
I hope you find whatever you are looking for with a nice girl who can understand you better than I. You hurt me, but I cannot hate you. Never hate you. Silly me, I guess. At least, if anyone where to break my heart, I am glad it was you.
/Can’t get past her
Falling fast
It's true
It's better when I bleed for you/
I tried to save you, but it wasn’t enough. And I am sorry. So this is it, the end of the line. I can’t forgive nor can I forget, so this is goodbye. There will always be a place for you in my heart, but my heart isn’t enough anymore.
Goodbye Lea.”
A girl stares at the letter blindly, tears welling in her eyes. She runs a paint spattered hand through her scruffy mane of bubblegum hair and swallows. She lies the letter on the side, her other hand clamped over her mouth. It’s her own fault after all. Tears spill down her cheeks as she struggles to stifle the noise of her own sorrow. Yet another lesson learned: you don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone.
“I’m so sorry...” she whispers brokenly before collapsing onto her bed and sobbing into her hands. “I love you...” |
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