I'm so sorry about that,
it sounds awefull.

Yeah, I don't want to fight with him it's just because of something stupid anyway. I'll have to find a way to talk to him, hopefully in public.

After graduation I'm going to do the study line on my new school, it's the one with the most choices afterwards. Then after three years there I'll have to decide what I want to become. I'd like to be a doctor, dentist, psykologis or something like that, but I'll have to get REALLY good grades then.

~*Leonie*~

I don't drink or smoke, cause I don't want to get in trouble for it here. But I don't mind as long as it's legal.

See, me and this guy we don't HATE each other, he might dislike me somewhat. We had this thing right, and I was so in love with him, I think he liked me too, but then I spent to much time with another guy, and he told his bestfriend that it looked like me and the other guy were hooking up. Atleast that was what his bestfriend later told me.
Then there were some other things, which I think I've told you before, and we don't talk. But I know he still cares, cause if he didn't he wouldn't have bothered to care at all, instead of acting the way he does.
But I'm going to try sort it out before I graduate, in June, because I don't want to have this stupid "fight" between us. ;/

~*Leonie*~

Ah, I've never tried it either. Proberbly will, since I'm dutch, and it's legal there, and I'm there atleast once a year. Me and my friend are planning to go there in the summerholidays next year and party all summer long ;p
Since we'll be legal to drink alcohol, since it's 16 years in The Netherlands, and ****s legal too, and cute guys ^^.
I can't wait!

So yeah, rumours totaly suck. Happened to end up on the same place as the guy that 'hates' me, AGAIN. I always end up being somewhere he's too, just reminds me how much we have incommon, I still think he's really hot too!
x)

~*Leonie*~

That sounds a bitt harsh. I hate it when people make up rumours, but if they haven't got anything better to do then I'll let them. I don't care if people go around thinking I've had sex with half the guys at school. I'm not really the one to care, it's just a bitt annoying.
Doesn't help much when my friends are always saying that I'm such a ****, and people hear it and think it's true ^^.
So, Terry smokes ****? Do you smoke too? xD

~*Leonie*~

hey. ur on my friends list now. hope i can get to know u. come to doll chat ill b there.

That's really good, I'm happy for you ;]

I've made a lot of stupid misstakes when it comes to guy, and there've been nasty rumors going around school about me.
First one was about me and this guy kissing, not to bad, but he's a year younger, and I barely know him, people were like uuuhm...why?! But hey, guilty as charged ;D
Second one was about me and Erik, about him fingering me, which was a bitt worse then the first one, and I think it pretty much changed peoples view on me. But again, guilty as charged.
Erik cinda has a grudge against me, because I told someone I trusted, who turned out not to be trusting, and told the whole school. But we both shruged it of and said it had never happened, but it really damaged our friendship really badly. And we're not speaking to each other.

Rumors suck, and I bet I'll somehow end up in one next year too ;/
It's like one each year, and they keep getting worse, maybe I should stop being with guys xD

~*Leonie*~

You don't have to feel bad for me, I've put it behind me. We learn from the mistakes we make ;]

I'm really sorry that you're having such a hard time with Terry, but I'm sure it'll all end up allright, and if it isn't with Terry, then it'll be with a guy that deserves you :]

We can't have everything we want, and we've got to remember that we're still pretty young, and've got our whole life infront of us. We've still got a lot left to do, and our time will come.

Geez I sound like an old person ^^

~*Leonie*~

Aww, guys always hurt us girls don't they?!
I've had my heart broken really badly not so long ago. His name was Erik, and we were all over each other, always flirting, he constantly told me how much he wanted to shag me etc. xD
He's my bestfriends other bestfriend, and well one thing lead to another and he *cough* fingered me twice. And things were still pretty much the same, I was really in love with him, but then there was this other guy too.
And the other guy was really hitting on me, acting like he wanted to be with me, and Erik haden't asked me to go out with him or anything, so I thought I'd just go for the one that I had the most chance of ending up with, even if I did like Erik better. Soo stupid..
So we had this school dance, and me and the other guy got really close and danced all night. Erik was there too, and he cinda stoped talking to me after that, and my bestfriend called me two hours later and said that Erik had told him that it looked like I was getting it on with the other guy. It must have meant something to Erik after all.
I was so in love with Erik, I didn't know what to do. I told one of my closest girlfriends about what happende between me and Erik, and she later told everyone. I cried through most of the christmas formal, even though I talked to him for a sec, but the second time I tried to he was like "WHAT?!!" so I just walked of.
After that he found out I'd told someone, and that people knew, he yelled at me, told me I was worthless and stupid.
He's still a bitt rude to me, but I've learned to live with it.
I always fall for the wrong guys, such as my bestfriend ;p

Wow, that's great!

I wish my crush wold ask me out but it's a bitt complicated.
We're bestfriends, and we can talk about anything. He likes me too, but we've decided not to date each other, because we don't want to ruin our friendship. But we still have this on going affarir, I guess you could almost say we're friends with benefits ;p
I haven't liked him the say for a very long time though, only the last two months or so, before that I cinda had a small fling with his bestfriend, and two of his other friends before that again. I can't understand he still likes me though xD.

So, how long have you been crushing on this guy?

:]

~*Leonie*~

Guessing life is pretty much the same here as everywhere else, a bitt cold for being in May though.
The last snow dissapeared in the end of April, and it was pretty warm for a while, but then it got a bitt colder again.
Right now were having this huge project at school, for a whole week, and we'll be working when and where ever we want. Were free to choose the subject our selves, and my group chose spacetraveling. Not my favorite subject, I'd rather have choosen music or something, but oh well, it's fun none the less.

How is it over there?

~*Leonie*~