05-01-2011, 11:58 PM
I feel like I'm grave-digging, but I feel that if anyone seems to stumble upon this thread, they should read more about eating disorders than just some people saying things like "I skipped lunch, I think I'm anorexic"... etc.
Please do not say that I am being harsh or don't know what I am talking about, because I do. I have been diagnosed and came out of recovery around September last year. Not many people knew I had/have anorexia, because well, like most people, I kept it a secret. I am posting it here because I want people to know what it's like, so they don't want an eating disorder.
So to start off, I'm a 7th-grader, and 13 years old. I've been battling with anorexia for a little over a year now. I am 5'2" and the highest I've ever weighed was 99lbs, after recovery. The lowest I've been (through anorexia, not like when I was in kindergarten or whatever) was 71 lbs last year.
I hate when people only think you can be anorexic when you aren't "stick thin". People in my old support group were sometimes hefty, some looked like they would break if you touched them. It varies.
When you have anorexia, you don't just "starve yourself", you eat. You eat to get a faster metabolism, which burns more calories. When you skip meals, you slow your metabolism down, so it is harder to lose weight, and you sometimes gain weight after. Also, it makes it more tempting to binge. Also, a lot of people, including me, exercised. I would eat a small breakfast, skip lunch, and small dinner. In a normal week I would exercise at least 30 minutes cardio, with karate 2 days a week for half an hour, and soccer 3 days for 2 hours. I was normally eating about 500 calories a day, but burning double or triple that. If I had anything more than 700 calories I would quickly go to the bathroom and vomit it up.
Anorexia sucks. It is the hardest thing I have ever overcome in my life, and I am easily triggered. I am currently 94 lbs, and eating around 900-1000 calories a day. (Wayyy below normal, I know. But I still have a urge to purge/vomit if I eat over 1300ish or anything close)
If anyone would like to lose weight, I would recommend doing it with a healthy diet. I would never in my life wish anorexia upon anyone, so take it from me, eating disorders such as anorexia is unbelievably hard to deal with.
(Sorry, after reading some of the posts in this thread, I had to rant..)
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