05-17-2010, 04:33 PM
well after reading all these... i myaswell say something.
I have never actually hurt myself on purpose, but i do think about it often,
sometimes i get so close to cutting myself.. its scary. I even though about suicide before..
When i thought about cutting myself, id think but what will this do for me in general.. like this not going to make my problems dissappear. And after what i went through with my sister i think,that could be me,My sister used to cut herself.. it got to the point where she just took a razor,(for shaving legs) and just slashed her arms.. it was scary she ended up in the hospital.. but im thankful shes still here.
I thought about suicide while sitting in my room one day and thought,would it hurt to just jump out my window.. id get this feeling in the pit of my stomach,i was afraid to be alone after that.. so whenever im all alone in my room and i think about any of those things,i just tell myself to go downstairs and join my family.. so i dont think about it.
I still do think about it, but i know its wrong and i dont need that extra problem on my back.. its a hard thing to get out of your mind. especially if youve been bullied or feel like noones there for you, but just find some friends. thatll help alot.