[Miranda_]

It took me a long time to get to the stage where I could accept myself. Even now, I still have days where I feel fat and ugly; it takes a lot to get thru days like that. I actually have to distract myself from self harming; last time I had an argument with my boyf, I'd actually picked up a knife and had to struggle to put it down and not use it on my arms. I don't think the urge to harm myself will ever leave me.