07-29-2008, 03:30 PM
I haven't lost a close family member since I lost my great-aunt on my mother's side back in... 2005? It was on an Easter, too. A death we're trying to prepare for is my aunt Kathy's; she has pancreatic cancer, has had it for years now without knowing it, and the doctor gave her a pretty grim prognosis. I didn't even know her name before last year; she wasn't really invited to any of the family reunions, because she and my grandpa didn't get along anymore.
When she found out about it, I don't think she was very surprised; their mother had died of the same exact thing a looong time ago. She's on a lot of different pain medication now, and she's able to walk without her walker sometimes (a lot of her pain's in her back now), and she's now in a nursing home. She's a really sweet lady; I don't know how her siblings are gonna take it. I'm not sure how I'll take it; I barely know her.
I stare at the girl in the mirror: T-shirt, torn up jeans, no beauty queen.
But the way that you see me, you get underneath me, and all my defenses just fall away, fall away.
I am beautiful with you, even in the darkest part of me. I am beautiful with you;
Make it feel the way it's supposed to be!
You're here with me: Just show me this and I'll believe I am beautiful with you!