07-29-2008, 04:30 PM
I haven't lost a close family member since I lost my great-aunt on my mother's side back in... 2005? It was on an Easter, too. A death we're trying to prepare for is my aunt Kathy's; she has pancreatic cancer, has had it for years now without knowing it, and the doctor gave her a pretty grim prognosis. I didn't even know her name before last year; she wasn't really invited to any of the family reunions, because she and my grandpa didn't get along anymore.
When she found out about it, I don't think she was very surprised; their mother had died of the same exact thing a looong time ago. She's on a lot of different pain medication now, and she's able to walk without her walker sometimes (a lot of her pain's in her back now), and she's now in a nursing home. She's a really sweet lady; I don't know how her siblings are gonna take it. I'm not sure how I'll take it; I barely know her.
High dive into frozen waves where the past comes back to life. Fight fear for the selfish pain;
It was worth it every time. Hold still right before we crash 'cause we both know how this ends.
A clock ticks 'til it breaks your glass and I drown in you again,
'Cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn't need. Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don't know why!
If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy? If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?